over the moon :-)

I look upon silver linings,

When I wish for a different reality.

The stars are too busy,

Too occupied for the many hopefuls.

On most days,

I feel like the clouds;

Shadows behind the brilliant ones.

And so I look upon the clouds,

Knowing that I only have the odds with me,

And wish that they hear my heart’s desires,

And that maybe they feel what I’m feeling too.

I Guess they did.

My heart is full,

And warm,

Even with the many despairs it carries.

The clouds heard me;

They’re giving me a chance.

As the sun started to rest,

The clouds glistened and twinkled,

Giving me comforting acknowledgment.

Now,

I’ll show them that not only do stars shine,

But clouds do too.

deleting Instagram!! #2

“Signed out, deleted the app.”

Another day and maybe it is too soon to say, but I’m seeing the benefits already 🙂

Morning feels:

Update on quality of studying:

deleting instagram!! #1

Signed out,

deleted the app.

I’ll be updating my feelings and experiences in this 30 day journey! Even during the day itself, day and night, where I feel it is needed!

Decision:

Pretty sure you guys have already heard of the negative impacts of social media!

  • Obsessive relationship with your appearance
  • Diminishing quality of relationships in real life
  • Poorer productivity
  • Poor time management
  • Mental health issues

And more!! But these are the ones that affect me.

I just really want to spend my time in more meaningful things like spending time with family, soaking up experiences, and building on my own image without being narcissistic.

I actually did this once before in secondary school but instead, it was going without my phone for 3months AND THAT FELT SO GOOD!!

So yay okay 🙂 wish me all the best!

Update!

i kinda want to be a fish?

I feel like a fish out of water;

Anxiety coats my existence when I breathe on land.

My brain a mess of thoughts,

my body riddled with pain and flaws.

Who am I to the people I love,

who am I to myself?

I’d think myself into perpetual darkness and misery.

But when I submerge myself in water,

I feel at peace.

The world seems bigger,

and there I truly understand that I am in the obedience of something far greater than myself or any other human being.

I fall helplessly small,

yet I am calm,

and happy,

looking at the big ocean blue.

Oh how wonderful it would be,

to breathe those pristine waters in my next life?

am i actually maturing???

I wake up to yet another day; a new day.

But this time, I was different.

It wasn’t because of a dream,

or anything life-changing yesterday…

What changed was just…

me

How do I explain this?

I just woke up one day,

a random day out of all the days it could have been,

and decided to change my life.

As cliche as it sounds,

I wanted the change to start from me.

I didn’t want a traumatic event to change me,

or another person triggering a change in me…

I wanted to be responsible for my own life’s good outcomes.

#empowerment? #maturing?

Whatever it is,

I am really happy this is happening.

I shall do my best to keep this up!

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I hope you’re happy for me.

I wish the same would happen to you too 🙂