thank you, really

Thank you, for the late nights and the laughter.

Thank you, for all the stoning moments and helping me realize I have a bad girl side of me.

Thank you, for opening my eyes to the beauty of different people.

Thank you, for driving me places I have never been to before.

Thank you, for the whimsical moments of pure innocent romance.

Thank you, for letting me try durian despite my parents’ wishes.

Thank you, for the cuddles that made me feel safe.

Thank you, for pushing me out of my comfort zone and feeding me so much.

Thank you, for the surprises on normal and special days.

Thank you, for trying to be close to my family…

that really meant a lot to me.

Thank you, for being my happy youth love.

Well,

I’d thank you for the sad things too, but I’d love to only have happy memories of you.

I’m finally just smiling when I accidentally remember you.

massage my soul will you?

after a long day,

will you spare some time to ask about my day?

will you look into my eyes and tell me that everything will be okay?

will you speak from your heart and willingly want to take the pain away?

i’m all bare,

vulnerably naked,

but consensually waiting for your loving touch.

will you hold me well,

and massage my soul?

getaway car

you were my youth,

my first taste of escape.

if i could choose,

i’d still wouldn’t have it any other way.

you hurt me yes,

but you still gave me the happiest days.

now in my wisdom days,

i appreciate you as my john ross,

and that i,

in this lifetime,

can only be your betsy.

i’ve come to love,

i’ve come to be loved,

more than you made me thought i deserved.

just like a getaway car,

fast with passion,

we roared like the wind,

but weren’t destined to go very far.

you are my getaway car.

Jane the Virgin

She’s bold and scared,

passionate and reserved;

How great would it be,

if I was like her.

As still as the lake,

as frantic as the rapids;

I’d love to be her,

this very minute.

Inspiring yet a lesson herself,

She’s everyone’s person;

I wish more people would know,

about Jane the Virgin.

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In this time of turbulence in my life, lessons and feelings I got from watching the series really helped me get through. Everyone should go watch it 🙂

 

 

 

bye bye demons

With an average of 3 hours of sleep,

I brave through a new day, yet again.

I piggyback my demons as my angel hangs on to my heart,

as it remains pure through hell.

It shows potential…

My demons see that.

So they press on,

for years,

loving a good challenge.

I persist on too;

a war over my heart constantly shook my foundations.

Today, they finally lost.

Today, I get to sleep and rest my burdens.

Today, they lost,

because my heart is stronger than the shit you give me.