over the moon :-)

I look upon silver linings,

When I wish for a different reality.

The stars are too busy,

Too occupied for the many hopefuls.

On most days,

I feel like the clouds;

Shadows behind the brilliant ones.

And so I look upon the clouds,

Knowing that I only have the odds with me,

And wish that they hear my heart’s desires,

And that maybe they feel what I’m feeling too.

I Guess they did.

My heart is full,

And warm,

Even with the many despairs it carries.

The clouds heard me;

They’re giving me a chance.

As the sun started to rest,

The clouds glistened and twinkled,

Giving me comforting acknowledgment.

Now,

I’ll show them that not only do stars shine,

But clouds do too.

deleting instagram!! #3 &#4

“Signed out, deleted the app”

My days have become more wholesome and it is really amazing how my life is changing for the better!

I used to doubt those YouTubers who tried it and said it was good but now I’m starting to appreciate it myself πŸ™‚ Maybe you should try it too?

Updates:

#3:

#4:

I realised that the more I don’t think about it, the easier it gets

deleting Instagram!! #2

So today I actually dressed up, which is extremely rare! My friends usually complain about how I could wear sloppy wear to hang out with friends πŸ™‚ After I dressed up, I realised I could not share it with my friends and that really bummed me out…

Which is bad in my opinion.

I wanted to have a healthy relationship with appearance and having a solid and steady development loving myself.

After a while, I realised that I felt great regardless! Stepping out and being out, not being afraid about having enough likes or getting validation from my peers lifted a huge weight over my shoulders. Not only that, I got to know that I don’t actually entirely hate my appearance through how I felt being out in public, with all the make up and nice clothes, without getting approval from my friends.

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Today, a full day out and I didn’t get to share any of it with instagram yet I felt great and beautiful at the end of the day!

I guess this marks the start of a healthier relationship with self-gratification and appreciation! hehe

crossroads… now or never

You’re stuck;

the crossroads…

It’s time to get a grip,

don’t be afraid;

be brave.

Courage is not the absence of fear but the triumph over it.

Breathe…

take a step,

in any one of the paths,

just as long as it’s forward.

You got this.

Somehow, it’ll be alright.

-God

 

i kinda want to be a fish?

I feel like a fish out of water;

Anxiety coats my existence when I breathe on land.

My brain a mess of thoughts,

my body riddled with pain and flaws.

Who am I to the people I love,

who am I to myself?

I’d think myself into perpetual darkness and misery.

But when I submerge myself in water,

I feel at peace.

The world seems bigger,

and there I truly understand that I am in the obedience of something far greater than myself or any other human being.

I fall helplessly small,

yet I am calm,

and happy,

looking at the big ocean blue.

Oh how wonderful it would be,

to breathe those pristine waters in my next life?