deleting instagram!! #3 &#4

“Signed out, deleted the app”

My days have become more wholesome and it is really amazing how my life is changing for the better!

I used to doubt those YouTubers who tried it and said it was good but now I’m starting to appreciate it myself πŸ™‚ Maybe you should try it too?

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#4:

I realised that the more I don’t think about it, the easier it gets

deleting Instagram!! #2

So today I actually dressed up, which is extremely rare! My friends usually complain about how I could wear sloppy wear to hang out with friends πŸ™‚ After I dressed up, I realised I could not share it with my friends and that really bummed me out…

Which is bad in my opinion.

I wanted to have a healthy relationship with appearance and having a solid and steady development loving myself.

After a while, I realised that I felt great regardless! Stepping out and being out, not being afraid about having enough likes or getting validation from my peers lifted a huge weight over my shoulders. Not only that, I got to know that I don’t actually entirely hate my appearance through how I felt being out in public, with all the make up and nice clothes, without getting approval from my friends.

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Today, a full day out and I didn’t get to share any of it with instagram yet I felt great and beautiful at the end of the day!

I guess this marks the start of a healthier relationship with self-gratification and appreciation! hehe

deleting instagram?

To be honest, I’ve thought of deleting my instagram for quite some time now. BY quite some time, I mean like years. Did you guys ever have that thought?

I’m the kind of instagram user that posts unglamorous stories and posts, not caring about the aesthetics what so ever. As I grew up and friends around me started to have really pretty feeds and started to glam up in many ways, it got me really conscious. But eventually after entertaining that thought for a while, I’d manage to convince myself that I was not in a rush to grow up and that my feed should be an accurate representation of my personalities.

However, life caught up hard with me and the external pressures got the better of me. I started to even post things that looked good rather than what I wanted to post. I posted them because they were more “cool” and  gave the image of me that I wanted people to see. I did that for a while and it was pretty nice until one day I started being more reflective during the holidays and saw what I have become. I started to archive posts on and off, depending on my fluctuating levels of self-confidence.

That was a very tiring phase. I mean it technically is not done yet. As I am writing this piece, I am actually deciding on what I want do to with my Instagram and how I should look at it in a healthy way. I didn’t want to delete the account and just ghost from the virtual world. I wanted to make Instagram my bitch, if that makes any sense to you.

I did some readings and watched some vloggers talk about related issues and came to the decision that:

  1. I should only post what I want to post. I have to LOVE that post.
  2. If there’s anything I’m not loving but would still like to share, I’ll put it on my story.
  3. Make sure that whatever I post on my Instagram, I’d be okay if my future bosses see it.

Aside from these pointers that I will try to put into concrete practice, I realised how Instagram has consumed me in many ways. Yes, Instagram is a personal feed, but it shouldn’t be necessarily a representative of who you are. So I should not be stressing about how my feed looks like. It should be a platform for me to connect with my friends.

I do understand that I am a part of a generation that really makes Instagram an important part of our daily lives but it should not be an essential to our daily lives. Rather, it should be complimentary. Instagram should be all about being excited to share our lives and to know what our friends are up to. To unite through common feelings and interests. We shouldn’t be viewing Instagram like it’s an online portfolio, labeling people into who we think they are.

With this, I decided to archive most of my old posts. It’s not that I hate the posts. I just decided that I don’t want to share too much about my family on it and I am currently undergoing a transformation! Yes, for real. I have been trying to watch my weight and skin care. I also have been trying to earn and save as much money, as well as fix my priorities in life. I want to be posting new things about the new me and hopefully love myself even more each day πŸ™‚