I feel like a fish out of water;
Anxiety coats my existence when I breathe on land.
My brain a mess of thoughts,
my body riddled with pain and flaws.
Who am I to the people I love,
who am I to myself?
I’d think myself into perpetual darkness and misery.
But when I submerge myself in water,
I feel at peace.
The world seems bigger,
and there I truly understand that I am in the obedience of something far greater than myself or any other human being.
I fall helplessly small,
yet I am calm,
looking at the big ocean blue.
Oh how wonderful it would be,
to breathe those pristine waters in my next life?